मनोदशा

अब और जीने का मन नहीं करता
अब और पीने का मन नहीं करता

अब और हसने को दिल नहीं करता
अब और रोने से दिल है डरता

कितने आँसू खुद पछ लिये
ये सवाल है मैं खुद से बार-बार करता हूं

कौन आएगा मेरे जनाज़े मुझे
भला कौन है ऐसे मरता

किसी खामोश से शहर के, सुनसान सी गली में
खुद को मैं तलाश करता हूं

अब किसी की कमी नहीं है मुझे
और सबसे  यहीं कहता है

बस यही बात मैं खुद से बार-बार करता हूं
अब और जीने को मन नहीं करता -2


जब दिल है मेरा बहुत भरता
तब जा के कहीं से एक आंसू है बहता

अब और जीने को मन नहीं करता -2

Kitni Durr

                                                Kitini door

Zindagi me sab thik hi chal raha tha

Ya aisa lagta tha mujhe

Kisi gumnaam si zindagi jine me kitna mashroof ho gaya hu 

Apne Khud k jazbaat bhulne sa laga hu

Kisi aur ki khushi kitni zaroori hai

Iss baat ko ab samajhne laga hu

Thoda Bachpan ab bhi baaki hai mujhme

Thodi duniyadaari samajhne laga hu

Aye Zindagi thoda thehar jaa

Iss Raftaar se Mai ab darne laga hu

Kabhi phir wapas laut Jane ki khwahish me

Bohot dur nikal gaya hu

Jiski Talaash thi kya wo mil gaya

Ya use Milne ki tapis me jhulas gaya hu

Kabhi Samandar ki lehro ki tarah

Khud hi piche mud kar dekhta hu

Kitne rishte hai saath mere aaj

Sab rishto me bhi akela mehsoos karne laga hu

Phir milunga usi hasi k saath

Jis hasi k saath hamesha milta hu

Baba

                                          Baba

When I thought about my father a few years back, I always thought that he is very miser and he doesn’t want to spend money on luxury. But now the man I have become because of him I can understand what he did and why he saved money when the whole world had all the luxurious things. He always looked in to the future and Whatever I am today is because of my father and his life teachings, throughout which makes me self sufficient and sometimes a little thought full about spending money . But I think coming from a middle class family he was right about one thing that he always said, “Your life will become what you make it and not what others see, work hard for what you want and you will succeed for sure”. My dad has been my inspiration since I started working and he has taught me many life lessons. Even today when I need to take any big decisions of my life I go to my dad and consult him as he has always been there for me and my siblings. My father never had a father like me but still he never failed to understand and show how much he loves us. Now, his only expectations is to live with us and see us flourish in life. I hope someday I can once again live with my dad and show him how much I love and respect him.

Thank you, Baba

Love you always

A Girl in this world

Never had anything to say and said everything, 

Those were the words that hurt the most....

Even if she said she has a life ,

she loved and adored you the most....

In this life and the next one ,

whatever you do has to go through her,

anything and everything what you did,

was not enough, nEvEr....

She cried, convulsed and bled,

she became yellow, green and rEd...

She fell and got up , 

she dropped and rEsIsTed....

Every girl scared and no thoughts to occur.

What do you think we are here to refer..

In this country or that, she manages to be a commodity,

Why, Just why is it taken away , her identity. 

Push her, abuse her, make her shiver....

she is a wife , girlfriend, sister and mother....

I, you, anything and everything comes from her...

Still she has , she is and she will suffer....

Stop the insult and the policing,

Because she is Anything and eVeRyThInG....

Ek saal

Ek saal guzar gaya uss baat ko!!!!
Phir bhi yaad karta hu uss raat ko…
Jab tu meri aawaz sun kar soti thi,
Mujhe yaad kar kitna roti thi..!!!!

Ab pata nahi tu kaisi hai…
Kya ab bhi tu waisi hai…!!!!
Jhagadti thi tu har baat pe…
Thode intezar ki  baat se…!!!!

Teri hasi pe main khush hota tha..
Tere ansu dekh main rota tha..

Phir se wahi din aayega…
Ye soch soch main sota tha..
Har lamha uss saal ka main yaad kar sanjota tha..
Phir se wahi din aayega ye soch soch main sota tha…

Maa Mujhe Bohot darr lagta hai

A gal expressing her emotions to her mom :- (heart touching)

Maa mujhe dar lagta hai..bohot dar
lagta hai...

suraj ki Roshni Aag si lagti hai..

Paani ki Boonden bhi Tejaab si lagti
hain....

Maa Hawa main bhi zahar sa ghula
lagta hai...

Maa mujhe chhupa le bohot dar
lagta hai...

Maa yaad hai wo kaanch ki Gudiya
jo Bachpan main tuti thi...

Maa kuch aise hi aaj main toot gayi
hu...

meri galti kuch bhi na thi maa fir
bhi khud se ruth gai hu...

Maa bachpan main school teacher ki
gandi Nazaro se dar lagta tha...

padsos k chacha k Napaak iraadon
se dar lagta tha...

maa wo nukkat k ladko ki bekhouf
baaton se dar lagta hai..

or ab Boss k wahshi isharon se dar
lagta hai...

Maa mujhe chupa le..bohot dar
lagta hai.... :(

Maa tujhe yaad hai tere angan main
chidiya si fudak rahi thi..

thokar kha k main zameen par gir
padi thi..

do boond khoon ki dekh k maa tu
bhi ro padi thi...

maa tune toh mujhe phoolon ki
tarah pala tha..

un darindo ka aakhir maine kya
bigada tha...

kyu wo mujhe is tarah masal k chale
gaye..

bedard meri rooh ko kuchal k chale
gaye..

Maa tu toh kahti thi apni gudiya ko
dulhan banayegi...

mere is jeewan ko khushiyo se
sajayegi....

maa kya wo din zindgi kabhi na layegi...

maa kya ab tere gher barat na
aayegi??......

maa khoya hai jo maine kya fir se kabhi na paungi?

Maa saans toh le rahi hu..kya zindgi jee paungi??

Maa goorte hain sab alag hi nazaron se...

Maa mujhe un nazaron se chupa le....

maa bohot dar lagta hai mujhe
Aanchal main Chhupa le...

plzz tk cr of girls...they are precious creation of GOD...:)

Thoughts

har faisle dimaag se nahi hote dost.
kuch ko dil se hai liyaa jaata.
mere kharchane se dost-yaar khush rehte hain
bhale hi meri jeb tang ho..use nahi hai siyaa jaata

jaam banaaya saaki ne
toh baarikiyon ko darkinaar kiyaa
bin soche samjhe banaa liya hausla
par feke hue ko waapas nahi hai liyaa jaata

har shaakh pe ullu baitha hai
mere yaar ne mujhe kaha tha
rehne do unko andhere mein
ulluon ko ujaala nahi hai diyaa jaata

bade tark se badee badee batein keh di aapko humne
par sach toh yeh hai ki
kabhi kabhi khud ki baat pe
mujhse amal nahi hai kiyaa jaata.